Being down has taken a new meaning in life and the worst part is that it's for no apparent reason. I mean, no disastrous event has taken place as such nor has something dear been taken away from me...and yet this phase!!!
Life is stagnant, too many things are in pending mode, nothing seems to be working out and am not talking about just my life...rather this is the general picture of all the lives which touch me in some way or the other. I have this quirky habit (if you could call it that) of setting events as goals for my happiness meter...so many times I have come to the conclusion that the occurrence of a particular event would lead to a better life, no more big problems to tackle anymore and to my exasperated dismay every time some new problem crops up from the underbelly of life...now, as this has been going on since the time I created that happiness meter...so I have never really been happy happy as such (if you know what I am trying to mean), but these past few months have seen the meter go on the oxygen cylinder...it's short of breath, too many events are piling up on its radar with no sight of any of them easing up soon...it's in dire need of a fresh breath of life and adding to the chagrin is the fact that I seem to be presently inhabiting a vacuous atmosphere where there is no whiff of air, no breath of life nearby!!!
Maybe it was silly of me to constitute the happiness meter...I mean c'mon, can there ever be a life without problems plaguing it...maybe it was always meant to be like this, a life full of struggle and an endless search for bliss...maybe I was vying for utopia which is actually just a figment of the imagination of some foolish poet/scholar who was silly enough to think up such a place...maybe "HOPE" is just like one of those toys which an orphan is handed out with when he longs for his mother.
I think I must now tune up myself to the harsh realities of life...too long, it seems, I have been fighting for zilch...happiness is a lost cause, heck...it's a non-cause!!!
Right now, this couplet seems to be the divine truth...come my life, I am ready to embrace you for yourself...no strings attached!!!
Life is stagnant, too many things are in pending mode, nothing seems to be working out and am not talking about just my life...rather this is the general picture of all the lives which touch me in some way or the other. I have this quirky habit (if you could call it that) of setting events as goals for my happiness meter...so many times I have come to the conclusion that the occurrence of a particular event would lead to a better life, no more big problems to tackle anymore and to my exasperated dismay every time some new problem crops up from the underbelly of life...now, as this has been going on since the time I created that happiness meter...so I have never really been happy happy as such (if you know what I am trying to mean), but these past few months have seen the meter go on the oxygen cylinder...it's short of breath, too many events are piling up on its radar with no sight of any of them easing up soon...it's in dire need of a fresh breath of life and adding to the chagrin is the fact that I seem to be presently inhabiting a vacuous atmosphere where there is no whiff of air, no breath of life nearby!!!
Maybe it was silly of me to constitute the happiness meter...I mean c'mon, can there ever be a life without problems plaguing it...maybe it was always meant to be like this, a life full of struggle and an endless search for bliss...maybe I was vying for utopia which is actually just a figment of the imagination of some foolish poet/scholar who was silly enough to think up such a place...maybe "HOPE" is just like one of those toys which an orphan is handed out with when he longs for his mother.
I think I must now tune up myself to the harsh realities of life...too long, it seems, I have been fighting for zilch...happiness is a lost cause, heck...it's a non-cause!!!
Maine dil se kaha dhund laana khushi
Nasamajh laaya gham, to yeh gham hi sahi
( I asked life to bring me happiness
Foolishly it brought sadness, so be it )
Right now, this couplet seems to be the divine truth...come my life, I am ready to embrace you for yourself...no strings attached!!!
37 eulogies: on "Happiness Meter"
u know CN even my Happiness Meter reads near 0 these days. But I try to stay focused and get on with it. In the last few days, I seriously wanted to end Blogging for good and never be here again. Not cos I hated all of u, but I hated myself. I put myself here, I exposed my deepest feelings to many strangers from ard the world...but some long-term mates just cut me off all of a sudden. All cos I was telling the truth.
So I lost hope n faith in all humans. Even in the BEST ones.
Anyways, we should not let ppl/events get to us. Cos in the end, no one TRULY cares abt us. We hv only OURSELVES. So keep urself happy somehow.
*HUGZ*
Keshi.
I dunno if that 'happiness metre' idea was actually a good one...
But when you have it on, make sure it always reads maximum okay!!! :)
Do not chase happiness. You will find it when you least expect it.
oyee why so low low?I can understand but I don't want you to be so. Go out shop a bit (Girls find it the best anti-depressant) chase gurls, drive fast naaaa fly low, call friends talk to all..n even after all this if you feel ur "happy meter" is not to max. talk let me know.. I'll scold you :D
btw I was reading ur last post and realised ur dream vacation is NZ. I've been there countless times. Its just next door and my cousins live there :)
Keshi.
"happiness is like a butterfly...the more u runafter it more difficult it is!"
I just finished doing the picture tag :) hv a look when u hv time.
Keshi.
I hope u get the happiness u deserve jus when u r least expecting it!and hope u get out of this deadlock soon. :)
Expectations my friend expectations...just like most of them are rarely met...expecting to be happy all the time..or even for most of it..is natural..but to believe that this expectation will be met..is unwise.. :)
Hopped from Keshi's
.. btw..I can connect with u here..its like a routine thing for me to be unhappy for no reason..! :)
Hiee bro..
Haven't been round blogger,so forgive me for not coming here :(
And you should be HAPPY,like always.
And as for tht song part..i'd say,zindagi kabhi humein dukh la kar nahi deti,our own deeds give it to us.
@all
in d midst of a v busy weekend...close frnd's sis is getting married on sunday, so have a lot of work...will reply to all d comments later...also will visit all ur blogs surely..just bear wid me a bit..hv a nice weekend everybody..tc!!!
Happiness follows sadness. That's what life is all about, isn't it?
"Raat ki baad hi toh sawera hota hai"
happiness is jus a state of mind... if you think you can achieve it, even on the bleakest days.... u will.
:)
hey bizzie bee..hw waz d marriage??koi pasand aaya??n wen will u start ur html classes :D
hey..my happiness meter was superbly below zero yest..infact yest was the landmark day of my life, it achieved a singular status of calling itself, 'The day when everything goes wrong'
man..im suffering its after effects today...and i might suffer some more for a few years to come, for what I did today!
cheers!
Vyo
How was the wedding?
ohh evryone has said so much abt hapiness
gud too read..so many different opinions
i wrote sumthing on my blog few days back dere was a line in it..
"victim of happiness"
may you get sum ans.
i know man!!!!!
humph!!!!
@keshi
thank god u ddnt disappear...best decision u would take in a while
happiness, i think needs to be found in the smallest of things..live happily
@neha
yeah...mebbe it was a bad idea
still grappling wid it
@sneha
seriously yaar....hv nvr chased it
@sachi
hugs for u ....thnx a lot for d advice
@keshi
yeah...ever since i saw LOTR
@broca
well said bro
@keshi
will chck it for sure
@ria
thnx a lot....hugz
@zubin
true bro
ye dil...ye pagal dil mera
@aayushi
truely sis...its just us who blame it
@mahi
thts wht every1 says
but sumtimes i think "is raat ki koi subah nhi"
@solo
wish i had d strength
@sachi
nhi yaar...koi bhi pasand nhi aayi
actually...sharapva wasnt invited u c:D
@vyzz
may u get over d exp sooner rather than later
@sneha
wedding was too gud
@joidevivre
hopefully i do
@wian
i so hope no one knows
hey nice blog....adding u up...
cheers
parul
@parul
welcome to my space
thnx 4 d add
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