And all this while I thought I was numb...how effing blind was I?
I am feeling-less, nothing affects me, I don't feel hurt, am a sponge ball who absorbs everything and never goes out of shape...huh...one upright middle finger to all those thoughts!!!
It pains, it hurts, it pierces the very shreds of the soul...It is my very existence. I breathe to hurt myself for every breath strikes a nail in the heart...I long to stand in front of the mirror and look myself in the eye.
I am feeling-less, nothing affects me, I don't feel hurt, am a sponge ball who absorbs everything and never goes out of shape...huh...one upright middle finger to all those thoughts!!!
It pains, it hurts, it pierces the very shreds of the soul...It is my very existence. I breathe to hurt myself for every breath strikes a nail in the heart...I long to stand in front of the mirror and look myself in the eye.
Why can one not forget oneself...I so want to do it
Why is there no strength of will which can conquer self-knowledge
Why can't I wipe away myself from my memories...it would ease the passing
Why is there no strength of will which can conquer self-knowledge
Why can't I wipe away myself from my memories...it would ease the passing
14 eulogies: on "Unclean Slate"
CN all I can say is, ur not alone on this.
*HUGZ*
Keshi.
pain, sorrow, at times the lows life throw my way are like the pinch I need to lt me know that I am not living a dream.
Else perhaps I would cease the appreciate the essence of life!
don't worry, we all go thru this phase and come out stronger than ever before !
Cheer up!
Amit
i love below lines of Shelly:
"If winter is here, can spring be far behind???"
dunno i f i have quoted the lines correctly....but come on dear....inshallah everything ll b alright...have faith on God and rely on those who are close to u :)
whts happening man?..u hurt or not happy?!!..tc:)
hmmm... sometimes we need these heart aches to make us remember that our heart still keeps pumpin...
wht hpnd?? Why such a post??r u ok?
is this a continuation to our tweet-chat yday??
Hugzzz dear..
and yeah u can forget part of ur memories , though... i wiped of 4 years of my college memories.. my darkest period...
get well soon...........hugs
chck out ds..i hope u ll like it
http://heena-ansari.blogspot.com/2009/07/i-am-honestyou-see.html
:)
oho..we are all going thru that ya..and btw going odd the subject..like ur blog skin..hehe
and waise..what you say is what u feel inside...everyone hurts but no one tells..like in a maze i am..but im so lost..that people think im found.
can a drop of water ever tell you whats the depth of the ocean is???i guess never...because the drop itself is seeking the answer to the question...ya it can just flow with the waves to whereever they take them without pondering over any qusetions,but in any case it can never detach itself from the ocean..because a drop of water has its existence from the ocean...
we are just a drop of water in the ocean of life...
i guess this should help you to find answers to your questons...
i so badly wish what you wrote happens for true some day .. that i can just wipe my memories and move on ....
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